Why I Hate Religion, But Love Jesus || Spoken Word

Jealousy = my worst trait.

Acceptance = my biggest fear.

Have I ever googled pick up lines just for the heck of it? DEFINATELY. Have I ever come across ones with dirty ass references in them?  WITHOUT A DOUBT.  Have I ever hacked friends’ facebook statuses for no apparent reason?  MORE TIMES THAN I CAN REMEMBER. But honestly none of these things have gotten me offended in any way what-so-ever so I did not see any reason in your immature and over-the-top response to such a minor situation in my opinion.  

The truth is I can understand your’s and some of your friends’ disappointment as mothers to see two of your own 13/14 year old sons put a facebook status in your daughter’s account of some random pick-up-line as some sort of joke, that had a sexual reference in it.  I’m like a rubix cube.  The more you play with me the harder I get.  Yes, I’ve heard that line before, but no i wasn’t surprised at all that these teens would have a laugh at it, nor did it bother me that they had put it in my status at all.  But it MOST DEFINATELY bothered you.  You took it way more personally than i did.  I  did not feel one ounce of anger or disappointment from what they did.  Truthfully, I nearly had a reaction at all.  I didn’t rat them out.  I didn’t delete the post.  I didn’t do shit.  But when your fellow facebook-frenzy friends informed you of it, you took it straight to heart.  Everyone could tell you were heated, that you were disappointed in these 2 boys that you watched grow up all their lives, and do the unexpected; but so were the other mothers.  However, your reaction was out of line.   You took it as something extremely disrespectful and inappropriate.  As a comment directed straight at me with no regard to my being what-so-ever.  But the way i saw it: completely opposite.  In their defense, it was a fricken joke.  They didn’t think before they did it.  They didn’t wish for it to be meaningful in any way.  Plain and simple:  They thought it was funny.  

All us kids were laughing as you called the two downstairs thinking you were faking this “extreme mad act.”  But as it continued I was no longer amused. Do you recall what you did?  Are you embarrassed for yourself? ‘Cause I was definitely embarrassed for you, and for myself with you being my mother.  YOU yelled at these boys with mouth so big and comments more immature and unnecessary than the fucking pick-up line itself.  YOU told them you were so angry that you would BEAT and CRACK their BALLS into pieces and KICK their ASSES if anything EVER happened like this again. YOU told them that you would BREAK their DICKS since you were so disappointed.  That YOU HOPED they wouldn’t get an ERECTION in 10 years in reference to their shit they found on FUCKING GOOGLE?!?! SERIOUSLY COME ON NOW. WERE THOSE THE BEST CHOICE OF WORDS THAT YOU NEEDED TO GET YOUR POINT ACROSS WITH? WAS IT EVEN NECESSARY TO YELL AT THESE KIDS IN FRONT OF A TABLE OF ALL THEIR FRIENDS, FAMILY, AND MOTHERS? You stooped lower than the level you felt they themselves stepped down to.  I was embarrassed more than ever.  I was disappointed in seeing my mother act in such an immature manner.  It wasn’t the time or place for such a response.  And i could tell that I wasn’t the only one who thought so.  Behind the fading giggles and smiles of the audience filled with every child’s mother, was a hidden expression of jaw-dropping surprise that such a grown woman could act in that way.  The way you acted caused me more shame and disappointment than their actions ever were to me.  

I can see to a certain extent the reasons you were angry with them.  But was it really worth placing them in such a place where they were humiliated in front of EVERYONE during a celebration of friends you haven’t seen in years.  I have no doubt that it could’ve been handled in a million better ways.  Maybe even considered that I had no reaction in what they did.  You can blame me for being part of such a generation that these words don’t phase me a bit, but you can also see how EMBARRASSED, DISAPPOINTED, & PLAIN STUPID that your actions caused me to feel.  I never thought that MY MOTHER would exhibit such behavior that could make me feel so ashamed.